Whoa...

This past week was one of the hardest weeks I've ever gone through since I started school here in the fall of 2004. I don't think I went to bed before 3am any day this week. AGH! I don't know if I just put everything off until after Spring Sing or there really was SO MUCH HOMEWORK/PROJECTS due this week, but I haven't been this stressed in a LONG time. Having such a tiring week makes me look forward to sleeping in on Saturday.... ahhhh, the bed.

Both of my roommmates went to Tulsa this weekend. My roommates this semester are not the same as last semester and they are about 2 years younger than me. It's kind of rough at times, but we do get along great. Anyway, they are gone, and I'm here at the apartment all by myself this weekend. PARTY!! Nah, I'm just kidding. I'll probably order chinese, rent a movie, and sit on the couch tonight and enjoy this nice relaxing time. I don't know about you, but it sounds like a great plan to me!

Tomorow is one of my best friends birthday so I'm going to make him a nice cake or something. He'll be 22 tomorrow.... THAT IS UNBELIEVABLE! Earlier this week I had a conversation with Melia and Jill in the Caf about how "old" we were getting. Melia brought up that we were 7 or 8 years away from 30. It didn't sound that bad, but then Jill said, "When we're 25, we'll be 5 years away from 30!" I know it's just worded the same way, but I've never been more freaked out than I did at that table (If you have been paying attention in this post, you'll have noticed I've been having a lot of firsts this week).

It's so unreal to think that as one year after another goes on, I'll eventually hit 30. Then more years will pass and I'll be turning 40. I can't even imagine myself getting to that point! Then I start to wonder -- will I even be married by 30?! As the Spring comes, and more of my friends are looking forward to graduation, I can't help but psyche myself out. "What am I going to do after I graduate?" "Will I have to start all over again once I move away?" "Will I ever see that person again after I graduate?" "Will I meet anyone worth being in a relationship after I leave this place?" Question after question comes into my head, only putting me closer and closer to being all-out, 100% scared of graduating and having to change my life AGAIN! But, I guess that's how life is going to be? I'll move from one milestone to the next in my life and have to start all over. If I'm not careful, I can get real Debbie-Downer right now...

Let's end this post on a lighter note: I bought some Chaco's this week! I decided I could use them in Africa, Camp Blue Haven (which is where I'll be again this coming summer!!), and Mexico. They're supposedly really comfortable and since the strap is woven through the sandal, they snug right on your foot. I'm looking forward to wearing them while I'm in Africa. Today was slightly warm enough to wear them out, so I did! I'm growing to like them day by day! Here's a picture of what they look like:

God Bless...